trinamichelleyee

Math Sucks Balls!

2008-03-21T16:06:19Z

Trigonometry sucks balls. Seriously. I'm not going to use any of this shit in the future anyway. Fuck math man.

Pop Off

2008-03-13T03:52:42Z

People will always let you down, no matter who it is.
Your boyfriend, sister, brother, parents, bestfriend, cousin...
They'll always let you down. Why?
Because, people are people. And, people make mistakes.
It can be the smallest mistake ever or the biggest.
It doesn't matter.
They will let you down.

This is why people say there are no such things as friends.
And, I'm coming to believe that that very statement is true.
You may think it's fucked up or stupid, but you think about it.
Someone you consider close. Super close.
Did they let you down before?

Will there ever be a single decent human being in this world?

-TrinaMichelleYee

WOW.

2007-12-20T20:14:26Z

Jamie Lynn Spears..PREGNANT?!? What The Fuck.
The news gets better and better.
Seriously.

Slightly Annoyed

2007-12-06T19:43:48Z

Gay gay gay. I stay up until 2 finishing this ridiculous workload called a "project" and I wake up late. What bullshit is that?! Well, I did sleep at 4. Anyway, his attitude is pissing me off. Honestly, I haven't been late. Sure, I've been absent, but that's different. He's such a fucking dickhead. There's this comment made by some student on ratemyprofessors.com said he was a real prick and how he's only into speaking his republican one-minded self. I'm beginning to agree.

"Do not take his class! If you're into to the whole let's debase yourself in front of everybody thing then take this class. If you like youre professor to be a real dickhead, then take him. If you're into staying up at 5 in the morning doing a useless vocab project that most likely doesn't help you remember the words or understand them, then take this class. All you gain is a lack of sleep and a path towards baggy eyes and more sick days. In all honesty, kids. Do not take this class. One important thing is: he picks favorites and don't even think you'll be one. His SI isn't even his favorite. I'll leave it at that. You decide."

Finals are coming up. Ohhh. I'm so fucking excited. I"m so looking forward to overstressing myself. Yeah! Yay for college and its stupid bullshit. My life is so fucking great; I'm on top of the fucking world! Yeah yeah yeah. Fuck this.

Anyway, besides that. I bought Mario Party on the DS. It's addicting, but not addicting if that makes any sense. Ha. I've been playing it nonstop. Well, not exactly, but to an extent. This weekend I have to cram, but besides that. It's nothing. I have to work today and tomorrow. I WAS going to go to Disneyland with a friend, but I don't know. I guess I put boys ahead of "fun". Thinking about it...I don't even know why I wouldn't ditch work today for Disneyland. I get so frustrated around Steve. Bah, I'm retarded.

Ooooh! Next week I get to drive my beautiful, Ben Jorgenson for the WHOLE WEEK. Not just one day. Not just two. But, 7. HAHAHA! Wow. That was lame. Ohwell. I'm so excited. Haha. I think I'm looking forward to that than anything else. And And And, I'm getting the inside fixed since the lights aren't working or something? I think that's pretty much it.

There was a slight dramatic annoyance with a classmate this week.
I wish I could have slapped him, but I'm not that mean.
HAHAH, that reminds me. The only time I've EVER slapped a guy, was when I was all "sprung" over Issack. Ewwww. And, the guy told me to slap him and I did. WOW. That was a fun day. HAHAHA.

And, I promise. It felt good. REAL GOOD.

Cars, Romance, And Everything In Between

2007-11-27T18:47:02Z

Hello, again. I barely blog anymore, but whatever.

My Thanksgiving this year was very bland. I just wanted to sleep all Thanksgiving because the minute the break started; all I could think about was what I did last year. And, what I did last year was a memory that I just can't seem to erase. Or, maybe I'm just choosing not to erase it. Idk. Augh; my ear is itchy. Anyway. This Thanksgiving, I went to go visit my Grandma and Grandpa. Then, I had to get ready to go to my cousin's. Turns out, my second cousins were there. Besides that, the best part of my whole Thanksgiving?

I BOUGHT A NEW CAR!!

Yeah, I bought a used Scion TC. I love love love love love love...HIM! Yes, I know cars are girls, but no. Not my car. :] I named him Ben Jorgenson. HAHA! After the lead singer of my favorite band. But, Oh Em Gee. It's beautiful. I'm very happy. I don't need a boy anymore! I got Ben! HAHAHAHA.
Okay, I'm retarded. Ohwell.

Lately, I have a friend who I've barely known for more than a couple months seems to be incredibly infatuated with me. And, he knows I know. I guess I just don't want to ruin the friendship that we have already. It's hard enough as it is to maintain a friendship when you know the other person has feelings for you. And, it's not my fault that I can't like him the way he likes me. And, yes. At times I've found myself liking him back...but, it's not enough. And, I know he'd do anything for me. It means a lot. It's just that some things just don't click. Everything else does, but that one thing isn't connecting. Even when I try to see past everything else. I'm a terrible person for being the way I am because I can't like him back the way he wants me to. And, he probably doesn't care, but either way. I think he'd rather have us be really close friends than have us be romantic lovers. I never really asked him either. I don't think I want to ask him that. Because, then...if he tells me that he'd rather have me as a romantic lover and I don't feel that way. Then, I'll feel even more like shit. Wow. That really sucks. But, lately. I'm maintaining the friendship the way it is because if it gets any further...I don't know what I'd do. Probably cut him off from my life like I do everybody else.
And, I apologize ahead of time. I really do.
And, it's not like I don't like you at all.
I do.
Just not in the way you want me to.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
Please, don't hate me.
I know you won't.

Anyway, I just wanted to update on how things are. It's been alright; I suppose. People change. Things change. The world changes. The people I used to know and the way the used to be and the way they are now makes me incredibly sad. I don't know what's going to happen a couple years down the line, but ohwell. I guess it's life. Life is life.

I wish things could go back to the way they were.
But, life isn't like that.
It's never like that.
It never will be.

-TrinaMichelleYee

bitemebbydarlin @ 2007-11-05T20:07:00

2007-11-06T04:34:26Z

I'm currently at work. I'm closing soon, then I have to go home and...chill? Ha. That's what I've been doing lately. Just chilling. About a half hour to go and I'm done. It's kind of funny how people in my class are so close with each other now. I doubt that I'd be able to keep that kind of commitment with anybody now. Damn. :[ Anyway, Steve is annoying and difficult and complicated.

Hello and Good Night.
--TrinaMichelleYee

Dazed and Confused

2007-10-15T05:00:47Z

I know I haven't been blogging on this. I haven't been writing in my journal either. College has been such a pain in the ass. That's an understatement. There is no word to describe it. Everyone told me college would be so much more better. That I would feel more free and what not. But, I actually feel worse than before. And, maybe a part of it is because of my actions, but at the same time I should feel free. I have an incredibly chill job. And, my coworkers are incredibly chill. Aside from the fact that my manager's been scheduling me with all the "cute" guys at my work. Except, there is this one guy...EVERYBODY hates him. Ha. His name is Jamie. He does this thing where he'll ask you a question and then when you're in the middle of answering his question, he'll ask another question...and then, he'll just answer his own question. Yeaaa, okay? Wtf. Anyway, to get to the point. I found out that I'm working with him next Saturday. I'm going to pretty much kill myself. I am not looking forward to that day at all. And, I will be TOTALLY relieved if I find out that he was bullshitting. Ha. Anyway.

I really don't know what to talk about anymore.
College SUCKS SHIT.
I LOVE my job, aside from Jamie.
And, that's pretty much it.

I HATE YOU x10!

2007-08-04T08:18:51Z

Where do I even start? I don't know. People are just so quick to assume. So quick to judge. Ms Juarez-Medina told me that one thing you do can lead to a whole chain of events, and I've learned. And, just for the record. I didn't do anything. I was only trying to clarify if what she said was true. How the fuck should I know if he didn't know or not?! Am I supposed to be some type of fucking mind reader?! FUCK PEOPLE. FUCK THE WORLD. FUCK STICKAM. FUCK THE INTERNET.

-TrinaMichelleYee

So Bored.

2007-08-01T23:06:50Z

I've been on StickAM for the past couple of months. It's not all that bad, really. I took a couple days off from it, I don't know if I can actually take a week off of it. I got a few people into it, but I guess it's just not THAT addicting. My dad's birthday is coming up and my sister and I don't know what to get him because EVERYTHING we EVER get him, he ends up disposing of. Golf clubs, golf magazines, this golf laser set. (He was going through a golf phase) Like, everything. So, I asked my mom what I should get him and she said I should get him a tie pin. LOL! Okay? As long as he uses it.

My birthday's coming up in 2 months. I want to get a tattoo, but I'm such a pussy when it comes to pain. There are so many things I want. -_-;; Shit. DS Games. Or an R4. HA! I want some barbells because I need metal ones, not plastic ones. PS2 games, too. :D HAAA.

Okay, anyway. I'm tired and I just felt like blogging. Okay, bye.

-TrinaMichelleYee

Emptiness

2007-08-01T03:22:50Z

I really don't have much to blog about.
This is how empty my life is.
How lame.

Maybe it's in the Air.

2007-07-10T03:08:23Z

I have been SUPER irritable lately and I do not know why. This is going to be a rant, so don't bother reading. :)

My ex-neighbor's family has pissed me off to the point where I just can't take it anymore. I practically grew up with the son, and his little sister was practically constantly over when she was 4-5 years old. Well, a couple years ago, his mom became a real estate agent and she told my mom that she could make extra money on the side by being a landlord and renting out apartments. So, my mom said she wouldn't mind. So, my neighbor's mom basically sold us 2 apartments and we didn't realize we had to fix EVERYTHING that came along with the apartment. And, I mean EVERYTHING. From the plumbing, the electricity, the floor, the windows, the doors, the walls, bug problems...... and, we have to pay the bank around 1,000 a month for taxes and all that interest shit that the bank comes along with.

Anyway, after we fixed everything, we found out we were losing a lot of our money to them because they got commission along with what we couldn't sell. The apartment, I mean. And, them I mean my ex-neighbor.

They ended up moving to this rich community and to the higher part of the hill (meaning the "richer" part of the community), and their house now is officially 2-3 times the size of ours. HAHA! AND WHAT'S WORSE! They bought 3 new fucking cars ALL IN ONE YEAR. A 745 LI BMW, A Honda Odyssey, and a Scion TC for their son. They have a wii, xbox 360, ps3, ps2, psp, and 2 ds lites. Yeah, my parents can't even afford to buy a new car now because of them. Not that we're poor, it's just we don't have that kind of money anymore. Not like we ever had that kind of money before, ...at least we were able to afford certain things like cars and game consoles and shit.

So, the reason why I'm ranting about it now....

Their son is like this knives salesman and he goes like a door to door thing to sell knives, so he comes over to us to ask if we wanted to buy any. My mom bought 2 knives from them and they're 100 dollars a knife and I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY SHE DID! THEY HAVE ENOUGH OF OUR FUCKING MONEY!! And, when he finished all that stupid transaction shit, this is what he says to my mom:

"So, you think you can ask some of your friends that you know a poor college boy who needs money?"

YEAH! POOR COLLEGE BOY?!?!?!??!? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! I was so close to just slamming the table and yelling in his face. If my mom wasn't there, I probably would have just straight up socked him in the face. I am/was so pissed off. POOR?! YOU'RE FAR FROM BEING POOR. I can't believe my mom just sat there and laughed and all she could come back with was:

"Hahaha. Come on. You drive a brand new Scion Tc fully loaded."

He laughed to and agreed to it. Yeah, motherfucker. You fucking stupid bitch! Stay the FUCK away from me.

You don't even know how pissed off I am right now. No fucking joke. I've been irritable all day. Ugh; That was some rant. Haha :] Hope you guys are having a good summer! Peace.

-TrinaMichelleYee

E-Drama!

2007-07-08T04:34:10Z

Wow, who knew the internet could be SO annoying and SO dramatic?! So, as you know. I've been using StickAM, a lot. And, it's kind of becoming the new myspace. It's sad, I know. But, whatever. Anyway. I need to rant about this one guy named John Reyes. He's this faggot on StickAM. And, I'm seriously not trying to be mean, but this guy is THE most ridiculous person I've ever had to meet on the web. No joke!

Okay, so let me explain, please!

I met this guy on StickAM because he came into my live around a week and a half ago. He started going off about how he had a bad childhood and how his family hates him and how he has no one. How he used to be in a gang and how he got arrested and shit and how he's trying to live a better life, etcetcetc. And, he started saying how he liked me and how I was making him fall for him and how he cared for me... and how he was lucky to have me? Okay. So, anyway. He started going off about how people on StickAM were talking shit about him and how these people were after him. Well, me being a nice person, I was trying to comfort him and all that jazz.

Well, he started telling me that he didn't want any shit with anyone and that he was tired that people always tried to start shit with him. He mentioned that he was going to stay away from StickAM because it "wasn't good for him". So, he did for a couple days, then he ends up going back into the SAME chat room that was talking shit about him. And, he doesn't even seem all that upset. So, I PM ask him if everything's okay and he doesn't respond. So.. I don't talk to him. Then, he'll attempt to talk to me by going "Hi." Which, was incredibly annoying if I may add.

ANYWAY. This guy ends up ignoring me and he'll come to me when something's wrong and shit. So, after a couple days.. like, I decided to stop talking to him. Just leave him alone since he was fine. Then.. after a WHOLE day later, he IMs me on AIM saying just "bai." Because he's retarded and he types like those noobs. But, yeah. After nearly an hour later, he sends me another IM saying "bai." I didn't even respond. I just give him a blank IM and he comes back with, "im leavin cya." Okay???????? Then he starts yelling at me to "LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" So.. I do. :)

After a whole fucking 2 days later, he IMs me...Yeah. With: "just so u know im blockin u later" HAHAHAHA! are you serious?...2 days later? HAHAHAHAHAHA. So, Fuck that. I'm on my usual StickAM routine and my friend tells me to go into the chatroom, so I do. And, after like a day or two. He PMs me in the chatroom saying,
"ur dumb"
i come back with.."..."

Well, okay. What's ridiculous is. This guy starts calling me names and he starts yelling at how I'm following him and how I need to get a life and how I shouldn't judge him because I don't know him. Okay, this guy revealed his WHOLE life to me in like 30 seconds without me saying anything. I'd put it up here, but it'd be invading his privacy and I'm not going to be a bitch like that. But, what I do know is that, he's had a "bad past" and he wants to "start over". HA! Anyway, so he starts going off about how I shouldn't judge him because I told him that he was the one who came to me and became Johnny Weeping Willow because of his bad past. Then, two seconds later... he tells me that I have no life and how I have HIV? HAHA! I didn't know..? Wow. I think he's one of the BIGGEST hypocrite's I've EVER met on the internet. I'm not even kidding. First he tells me to leave him alone, but he comes back to bitch at me. Then, he tells me not to judge him, yet he judges me? HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHSLDKTSDITJSODIUFSDLKTJSLKDJT. OMG! I swear. I was about to laugh and peeee in my pants at the same time. I told his enemy that was "threatening" to jump him and shit, and she laughs her ass off too! And, it's so funny now. Because the whole time, I found out, he hits on EVERY girl in the room. Basically, he's a desperate fuck!

Okay, so. I'm waiting for the next time he messages me so I can tell him to just shut the fuck up. He kept repeating himself. He really can't talk shit. I can't talk shit either, but for a 'tough guy' like himself, he really can't. :] It's okay! I promise not to tell anyone who small your dick is! HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHDSHLKSJTLSICJSLDKTJLDSIUFSLKTJSLDKTJSPOICSPDOIT.

That's pretty much it!

-TrinaMichelleYee

Giving Up

2007-07-01T08:03:17Z

I give up. I don't know what to say to you anymore.

I'm S.O.L!

Exhausted

2007-06-26T01:22:30Z

I'm so fucking tired. I'm exhausted.
I've been doing nothing. Even when I'm out from 9 to 3.
Kids drain my energy. I need to buy some Monster real fast.
I hate Red Bull! :[ Anyway, I don't know.

Peace. Visit me on Stickam. :]

Roll the Dices and Let's See Where They Fall

2007-06-24T17:05:55Z

So, her finding out happened sooner than I expected! I didn't even know what to say to her. I felt so bad. I knew she'd care. I mean, FUCK. I'm a girl, I would give a shit if my boyfriend was fucking with other girls. I called her for like 5 minutes and she sounded like she was going to cry. Shit...I would have already been crying! I don't even know what happened because her asswipe of a boyfriend called her, so she went and talked to him. I don't know what happened after that, but you know. If she sticks with him, I don't know what I'd say to that. Naivete, maybe?! Once a cheater, always a cheater..right?! I don't know. @#$*&@&&$%#@@$&#$%@#. Maybe I'll be courteous and ask if she's okay. It's not like I'm going to befriend her or anything. That's fucking whack.

I guess it was going to happen...sooner or later. I guess it just happened now?

Oh, well. I guess you're fucked. Your game's over!

-TrinaMichelleYee

Naivete

2007-06-23T20:56:53Z

I love how kids expect you to be nice because they think they have the power over you. But, they're wrong. See, my old neighbor's little sister...I feel compelled to be nice to her because her mom knows my mom. And, I felt being nice to her would do me some good. Honestly, I don't like to be a bitch to little kids because then I set a "wrong" example to them. And, honestly. I HATE kids. I hate them with a passion. All their running around and screaming and not listening. All that obnoxious pulling on your arm to get your attention. All that begging and giving you the sad face look. It's just annoying. Some people think it's just OH SO ADORABLE, but to me. It's just obnoxious and annoying. I just want to say to them, "The world's a terrible place to live in, and you're growing up in hell." But, no. I candy coat everything because I figure if they think the world's a better place, it'll 'help' them in life.

And, you see. My neighbor's little sister has been bugging the shit out of me this whole damn week. Grabbing onto my arm when I want to leave. Begging me to get her popsicles. I have to fight for her when people are picking on her. And, what do I get? I get in trouble for trying to cater to her fucking needs. Yeah. I get yelled at by my parents because she wouldn't stfu to her mom. Well, honey. Monday. You better prepare your fucking self because me being nice is non existent. You've picked the wrong girl to fuck with. I don't care if it was intentional or not. Little kids annoy me and I'm damn proud of the fact that I hate them. Now, they're going to get a taste of the bitchy side of me. And, they're going to fucking love it.

P.S. Make up your fucking mind you perverted little shit. Before someone tells your girlfriend.
P.S.S. I'm a pissed off girl and I'm about to kill someone. So, DON'T FUCK WITH ME!

Q&M

2007-06-19T08:57:12Z

I have a question and a message for those of you who have boyfriend or girlfriends.
My question is...would you care if your boyfriend was fooling around with another girl? Like, masturbating to her, taking pictures of her, calling her things, missing her, thinking about her... everything. Would you care? Well, obviously. 99.9 percent of you are going to tell me, "Uh, no shit. What kind of fucking question is that?!" Well, do you guys know anybody who's in a relationship where the girl doesn't care if the guy is fooling around? Even if it means him jacking off to another girl (NOT celebrity), and so on. You really wouldn't care?

I don't know. If there is a girl out there who's like that, then why are you in the relationship? If you have come to realize at any point in time when you found out your boy is fucking another girl... that the relationships is just god damn pointless! Maybe you guys are just FUCK BUDDIES. God, that's so wrong to think about. I don't even know.

Peace. What you are in right now is a RELATIONSHIT!

Happy Father's Day...Fathers!

2007-06-17T22:32:14Z

So, today's father's day. What are you guys all doing for your fathers? We're watching/falling asleep to Apocalypto. It's a little boring, and a little cruel, but yeah. My dad rented it last night, so we're watching it to spend time with him...I guess. I'm so tired...all I want to do is sleep, but if I take nap. I just get sleepier. I don't know if any of you guys have noticed that. You'll take a nap because you're tired, but once you actually do take a nap and wake up from it, you're even more tired than before..? Haha. :)

Anyway, hah! My mom's holding my lei and it still looks fresh! :D Amazinggg.

I fall for the wrong people.

Show Me the Money!

2007-06-13T16:10:23Z

Why, hello! I'm so happy I finally have a laptop. I can carry it anywhere in my house instead of sitting in one spot and walking back and forth. I can finally watch TV at the same time! Haha. :)

I finally got to see Pirates 3 yesterday on the big screen and not on my laptop. It was so much more exciting to watch. Then, went shopping around. I was going to buy this game, but I decided to hold off on it. Though, I did really want it. Bought 2 things from Fashion Q. It's amazing how much my style changed. I used to wear all this black and dark shit, now I'm like bright colored shit. WTF? I still like to wear black on occasion, I guess... Anyway! FUCK, I lost my train of thought.

I don't know what I'm going to do today.
I guess I'll just do whatever comes up.

OH! Now I remember. I am in LOVE with Criss Angel! @(#*$&(@*#&$. He's the hottest 38 year old alive. HAHAH! That sounds so gross, but seriously. He really is hot. I don't care about you people who think he's fake. He's making it out there and shit. I'd like to see you pull of a levitating trick! I want to go to Vegas so bad now because he's mainly in Vegas. He's usually famous in the Aladdin hotel, but FUCK! I haven't been to Vegas in forever because my whole family thinks it's such a waste driving all the way there if there's casino's only an hour away. DAMN THOSE CASINOS! There was this clip he showed where he said, "I'm not Criss Angel, but if I were...." And, he started doing this little trick, and he went up to this girl in the audience, and he went, "Criss Angel would probably be like... give me a kiss on the cheek." And, right when she was about to give him a kiss, he turned his head and he ended up kissing her lip. OHHHHMYYYYGOODDDDD!!!! I would have died if that happened to me! ASDFASDF.

Lately, my brain and mouth have NOT been coordinating very well. "Hey! We have to check out the myspace on message!" God, I'm retarded. :)

AND, I'm in love with Justin Long, too. God, he's gorgeous.

The Real World

2007-06-10T17:51:18Z

So, I got a new laptop, which I'm in love with. Actually, I'm not as in love with it as I should be, but I still love it. It's probably because I wanted this other laptop, but a laptop will be a laptop. I'm cool. So, I went to Fry's yesterday and I asked them if they had R4's because I really need to buy one for my DS, and they said they don't carry those. WTFFF! I can't believe out of all the electronic stores that exist, Fry's doesn't carry any. So, now I have to resort into finding some other place that does carry them. So, I need to ask someone who does have an R4 to get me one or something. IDK!

It's Summer, and honestly it doesn't feel like it. I need to get used to this life. I don't even know what I'm talking about. alskdjtladiudlktj! I don't even know what I'm doing today. I know tomorrow my parents are going to work, so I'm probably going to go and buy the DS games tomorrow. You know what I really want? I really want to get Mario Party. On anything. I love Mario Party. I have this gay version of it for my DS called Crash Boom Bang. I'm considering selling some of my PS2 games so I could save up to get something. I don't know exactly what, though. I got 80 bucks from my sister roommate's mom. She used to baby sit me when I was a fetus. She gave me more money than my whole family combined. My mom didn't give me anything. My dad gave me a 10 dollar gift card to starbucks. My sister got me a nano case, which she is going to return because my Ipod is gay and it won't fit! But, besides that. I have a couple bucks from Grad Night.

Maybe I should wait until Wednesday and go to Frank N Sons to get the two games I saw there. 30 bucks each. I don't know if they charge tax. I went with Melliza on Wednesday and I told her we'd run into Herman and Sam because they ALWAYS go there. We ended up running into them and it was pretty cool. Sam's actually pretty good looking for a korean guy. And, I don't like korean's. Not that I hate them, just as a general...most of them are very rude. But, yeah. It was nice to see them again. I'm loosing all my thoughts right now. Hah; I'm retarded.

Anyway. I guess that's pretty much an update. Peace.
Hi, Alby.

&& my dad cusses more than dane cook cusses in a lifetime.
it's annoying.

I can't quote Dane Cook anymore!

2007-05-21T16:46:35Z

"Being content isn't being completely happy. It's just knowing what you have is good enough."

Yeah. I thought of that straight off the top of my head. It's true, dontchathink?!

Insomniac, but tired?!

2007-04-28T06:43:30Z

I haven't been updating this frequently as I should. I've been hanging out with Melliza a lot lately. And, I don't want to be negative, but sometimes I feel like I'll lose her to, like I did Justin. Maybe not the same way, but just as a general thing. After what Chris Monzon told me about how they're not such thing as friends...it made me scared of wanting or being close to people. I tell all these people that I don't want to be close, but I end up being close anyway. It's like, I can't help it? IDK! I feel like all this 'good' stuff. Hanging out, ditching ROP, going to the mall,.....all of that is just short term and in the end, I feel like it's just going to disappear! :[ I need to stop thinking like this.

The school year is coming to a sudden end. Prom's coming. Senior activities are just around the corner, && honestly. I'm scared. I don't want all this terrible good stuff to end because I dread what's in the future. Mortgage, Bills, Relationships, Taxes...:[ I can't even handle Algebra 2! wtff. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need to just stop thinking. Period.

As for an update.
This is all I can give you.

Waste Of Time

2007-04-11T22:25:24Z

It's been spring break! I was supposed to take my license, but I was stupid and I forgot one of the slips at home. Chyuh I was pissed, but whatever. I got to reschedule the appointment for this Friday. I guess I got lucky, because I'd have to schedule it during school, which honestly I wouldn't have minded. I've been enjoying myself lately, in my own way. It's cool. I have late start when I get back, which I'm really excited for!! Well, not the late start... but, if I pass my license test...maybe my parents will let me drive! Hahaha.

Anyway. I'm just blabbering. I'll see you later.
Just thought I'd write something.

Time Flies.

2007-04-07T05:39:07Z

Today, I asked Emanuel if he's going to miss high school. And, he said that mostly the people and not the actual school. When he said that, I honestly felt a gut-wrenching feeling inside. I sat back in my chair and all these thoughts started to rush into my head. About the people I've known and the people I've met in the last 4 years of my life. All the stupid drama that ripped us apart, and all the new friendships I made. It's such a rush.

It reminds me of GVB, when Ming said that she didn't think she could be so close to people in a month, but she felt like all the people leaving was like a part of her leaving with them. Well, I don't exactly feel like that, but I feel something. Something deep.

When I walk down the aisle, the first thought that will go through my mind is I wish I could have done things differently and honestly. The only person I'll probably be thinking about is him. The one I lost to my identity. The one that meant so much to me. I could cry right now, but I won't.

Live life. Seems simple? It's not.

Don't You Dare

2007-04-06T04:58:48Z

What is it supposed to mean when someone who hates you, unblocks you? Does it mean that you're on their mind? Does it mean that the computer's dysfunctioned? What does it all mean? Sigh.

I have to say just one thing right now.
In all honesty, I still miss you.
Each and everyday.